Read the poems by Dzvinia Orlowsky
Glue Wind
Elmer’s Glue—swirled, rising into what her painter’s eye
recognized as a pair of blowing snow funnels.
I had reassured her I saw them too, and pulling
her close said Look, Tamara, if we squint,
the funnels shift slightly. And why is it
that, now, with her nine years gone
I suddenly want to take it down from the wall,
as if to say once and for all: Glue is glue,
others have done it. Though maybe not
with her 85-year-old arthritic hands. I could
put it somewhere between the pantry and crawl
space, cover it with a towel where it will pull
snow to it from an opened pack of flour,
until maybe, I’ll uncover it again next winter.
Until then, in its place, I’ll hang instead
her painting of violets. Not really
violets, after all, but more like a bouquet
of bruise-colored fingerprints. Where was it
I once read that German work camp
survivors often painted flowers?
Was it how they turned their minds away
from the dead—from eyes and skin
bleached by moonlight? I see her carefully
squeezing out several purples shades,
each one applied more thickly than the first,
wiping the excess with what looked
to be an old pair of her deceased
husband’s briefs, the dark oils,
staining her fingers, her eyes straining
to see the flowers. Maybe,
even though I know it’s just glue
and not the winter wind, every December
I’ll return the painting back to its place
next to the kitchen window wall
where I can look at it while I eat, sip
warm tea: two funnels solidified
into something that, if I squint,
look like swirling snow—They could
be named anything.
Elegy
—for W.L.
Black band of crickets,
shiny bodies, perfect anvil heads—
levitating above un-mowed grass.
Their song passes through my window,
this breeze, hand-like, glove-like
fingers rubbing together,
searching for dust.
Folding a Stranger’s Laundry
You didn’t tuck a quick love note
into the front pocket of his denim Levis shirt
or begin to sing Teach Me Tonight under your breath,
two years and counting after your divorce.
Instead you hung around the dryer pretending
to have accidentally dropped one
of what no doubt had to be
a favorite pair of socks,
the one that would suddenly appear,
a stowaway hitched onto an over-sized towel,
a turn of luck, a good omen—
You didn’t find a woman’s slippery
nightgown among his workout gear,
a citrus colored thong for you
to slowly peel apart from his Under Armour,
dismissing the sparks. You didn’t
have to say a prayer for love to find you,
then and there, in a basement laundry room.
Prayers, you believed, were meant for bigger
things—for, as a child, remembering to sleep
with your hands above your blankets,
luminous rosary beads
woven between your fingers.
You only had to lightly tug on his torn t-shirt
for it to tumble freely out of the drum,
to imagine it, instead, as a favorite rag
with which he wiped down maybe a saxophone,
playing a few licks and phrases,
after sunset, in his sound-proofed bedroom,
his pants, flecked with white paint,
from perhaps painting a fence. For once,
you didn’t have to reinvent yourself
in the lint-colored light, the bare bulbs
and give-away magazines,
swab your lips Sax Saver red
then slip into a shiny metallic
crop top and jeans.
You just had to be there, then,
that afternoon–
no one around,
his laundry, done,
except for one last shirt you left unfolded,
sky blue,
it seemed,
opening its arms to you.
— for Jay
Purchasing Respirators at Home Depot for My Family,
Post 9/11 2001
Mary Oliver’s geese have stopped
heading home.
Symborska’s white ants
have lost their signal,
William Stafford’s river finally admits
Hell if I know anymore…
Even the thickening sky can’t keep
promises: wet paper tissues
and plastic grocery bags catch
on telephone poles, hatch
into dark lungs. Multi-purpose
respirators, one size fits all,
instructions available in five languages.
I grab four: two for my husband and me;
one each for my son and daughter.
O face piece, filter cartridge,
chlorine and muriatic acid,
asbestos, dust fumes, lead—
making their way across the landscape,
announcing their place
in the family of things.
(*note: last stanza is taken with slight variation from Mary Oliver’s Wild Geese)